December 2010
16 posts
So I may have put myself in boiling water…yet again. At least this time it’s for the right reasons. I got so tired and sad hearing Alex complain about his lack of food and how his Dad is always eating all the food in the house so I called in a favour and he’s going to have some money show up on his door step. Hopefully no later then Friday. Not a lot of money but enough to...
I feel like I’m on a wheel again. Spinning spinning but never ever really going anywhere. Or at least not any where I want to go.
I’m starting to remember why I love him so much. Things I’d worked so hard to let go of as I moved on with my life. The reminder of how addicted I was to his slightly southern accent and the way we’d swap words over the phone. Constantly...
I need to be more careful of what I wish for….lest it come true.
In the midst of a day that’s been full of nothing but MUCH joy I still can’t help but wonder why I bother wasting my time on people who are happy to have me around but only when it’s on their terms.
So I asked Alex to call me last night to wish him a Merry Christmas. Well more I asked him to call as I never know when he’s online and I have a cell so he can call whenever and get a hold of me. Where as I never also know when he’s home to pick up.
I probably shouldn’t have talked to him on the phone while at my other halves home. And to specify…I don’t mean...
I find myself looking at those pictures again. I still keep laughing at the silliness of those with his pants on. Or hell even the one of him with his long hair and baggy jeans and red dress shirt at work. So 90s!
Now a days it’s so common to meet people online and do something long distance. Be it a short flirtation or something that blossoms into something more substantial and...
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Sometimes I just want to say....(venting)
FUCK YOU!
To the people who have left.
How dare you let me into your lives and give me reason to love you only to leave and deny me your presence and friendship.
It’s one thing to have a life and to drift away. It happens and that is something I whole heartedly understand. My oldest and closest friend from school lives in Saskatoon with her husband and first born. Even at that distance...
Old things anew...
Sometimes hooking up and running a HD from almost 4 yrs ago is a treasure hunt. Who knows what you’ll find and what will be helpful. Of course it can also be like an emotional gun to your head that will just go off when you least expect it.
On one one had I came across a somewhat blurry shot of my ex. I remember that morning. He hates having pictures taken and I managed one while we...
Last night I found myself walking home after playing some games with a good friend and emotional big bro to me. During that walk I couldn’t help but think on the ex and what has been now for a few months the final straw that broke my willing-ness to try and keep some form of contact with him.
Communication and Consideration
They were the two biggest issues. They are what I ask of from...
So for the first time in years, which is normal for me and Alex, I find myself getting lost on the phone. What feels like 15mins has been over an hour and a half and before we know it we’re fighting. Not fighting like I’ve known with anyone else. Something I almost want to relate as cock fighting in an intellectual sense.
In the past I was always the one that had a hard time being...
Date or?
So a cute boy that I’ve crushed on but kept my distance to due to circumstances is coming over tonight for drinks. Hang outs or is this a relaxed date like thing. I hate assuming that he likes me/wants in my pants but regardless this should be an interesting evening.
Happy hump day peoples!
After almost two years of no buss passes and one moment of cute’ing my way out of a near transit fine I finally have a pass in my back pocket. It feels good.
I’m also a weekend and a few days out of the week closer to the new job, new experiences and a week of almost non stop social events. I’m both excited and nervous at this prospect but with the last two weeks of near...
Semi charmed kinda life..
So before going out last night I receive an email from my mom letting me know that they’d put down my first kitten last night. No more loudly purring beastie who trusted me first, who head butts me brow to brow and who would let me carry her around in my arms when I was sad.
I’m going to miss my Demelza very much.
On the up swing..
-Hanging with cute/sweet boy in a few hours
-and...
Also been dreaming a lot lately..
Both times it involved my old job that used to stress me out a lot. Oh Shoppers Drugmart how I do not miss you. The first time was just tills that were bigger then life refusing to work for me while customers didn’t so much yell as crowd me with their demands to be helped.
Last night instead I was talking leisurely to co workers and noticing the odd change in uniform and how at first it...
Lists of awesome..
-New job start date is locked and loaded.
-New job is seen as full time(not contract) and is giving me full benefits.
-I get to hang out tomorrow with a mature, sexy guy who’s fully of respect towards others and pizazz. Oh and also lots of snuggles :D
-I have tons of time between now and the new job starting to paint, draw and sing.
Aside from hunger….I’m a very happy gal.
December is kinda awesome...
…at least it is to me anyways. It’s the beginnings of new things career wise and eventually the means to the end of the year that in some ways has brought a fair amount of self induced pain but at the same time some great joys.