December 2009
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Tonight was originally meant to be a quiet night at home.  I clean my room, pack my clothes and head to bed so I can get up, head to work and then catch a ferry home.  Instead I was willingly dragged out and got to see Avatar.  That alone blew my evening out of the water for a second day in a row. Part way through the film I realise I’d been texted and to be polite I wait till the end of...
Dec 23rd
ApertureScience →
ok so maybe the cake really wasn’t a lie…heh
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So 4am ish I stumble in, danced out, partied out and yet I’m stone cold sober.  I like my drink, I like to get stoned from time to time.  But what I love most is nights like this.  I hang with my buddies and meet some people that I’d known of previous but until tonight never really got a chance to sit down and talk with. What’s even better is finding out first hand that these...
Dec 21st
Dec 21st
I want you to prove me wrong, so please prove to...
(via liveonlyonce) I know it’s none of my business but perhaps you should more enjoy the love that is then try to measure it to what you think it should be?  Certainly would be less stressful and a lot less likely to cause tension.
Dec 21st
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Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you’re hard-headed. If you’re quiet, you don’t care. If you call him, you’re too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy. If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don’t fuck him, you’re a tease. If you do, you’re easy. You tell him your problems, he says you’re irritating. If you don’t, he says...
Dec 21st
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Ugh…I really don’t like it when my gut feelings come to fruition.  Especially when it means a date is cancelled.  I’d really been looking forward to see him him tonight.  But I’m kinda fed up with the cancel, reschedule and then cancel again.  I’m guessing his feeling like shite means he’s coming down with something and knowing him that’s entirely...
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Ahh…..why didn’t I do online multi player RPGs before now!?  I seriously don’t know why…well aside from the obvious draw backs of demanding payment for EverCrack and WorldofWhackos.  I started playing an Aeria game recently called Shaiya and it’s nothing less then relaxing at the end of a long day at work.  Now I’m not the sort of person to be sucked in and to...
Dec 20th
I was trying to not be too pessimistic but I had this feeling that things would fall apart today.  No boy, no dinner….which did happen but at least he texted me, apologised and we rescheduled for tomorrow night instead.  Any later in the week and well I’ll be gone home to the Rents and he eventually off to New York when I return home. Not really looking forward to heading home but I...
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Ugh….don’t really want to go to work right now but then that’s what I get for allowing myself to be distracted with sketching for a good 3hrs into the early morning of today.  Now it’s time to head to work and then come home and cook.  I’m kinda excited for that part cause I haven’t seen this person in weeks.  Also still kinda peeved at him but oh well....
Dec 19th
Dec 18th
Definitely doing better today.  I worked, I came home and against my nagging urges to stay home and stew I instead went out, hung with peoples in loud places, drove the roomie around to see his girlfriend(so fuckin’ awesome to see him this happy…first time since I’ve met him) and then now home. Kinda lookin’ forward to Saturday since it is now the official veggie curry...
Dec 18th
I can’t figure out right now why for the life of me I’m in such a sour mood.  Tears streaming down my cheeks and wanting to do nothing but lash out at those around me that try to talk to me.  I wasn’t like this when I left work earlier today.  In fact I was in a fairly good mood.  Sure some plans had fallen through or rather attempted plans because some waffled and when...
Dec 17th
Dec 17th
I don't get people who drag the rotting corpses of...
bennybing: fingered wirelessly from my BlackBerry device. I don’t get it either….what I do know is that I’m doing my best to not do so myself.  Not an easy goal but a good one!
Dec 16th
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Honestly.....I love honesty.
Ok guys…or any guy that reads this.  I’m gonna leave you a huge tip.  Honesty.  I know there’s such a thing as too much honesty but I’m one of those gals that loves it.  I may get pissed as all hell at you for telling me something that I don’t want to hear but in the end once I’ve calmed down, no matter how things resolve, I’ll at least respect you and...
Dec 16th
So I actually managed to talk to that guy from the other day.  It was a much better talk and as it turns out in the end I was right.  He was more or less taking his temper out on me.  Yes the tiny thing I had done had annoyed him but the rest…well was inexcusable.  He didn’t even apologise for it.  I think in the long run that’s what annoys me the most but then maybe he...
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So I quit walked out the door I don’t need this place, no not any more I need the sunshine, on my cheeks A smile upon my lips that last for weeks So I quit before you do me in I refuse to live this life of sin Gluttony and anger shouldn’t be my middle names Monies always transfer out of hand and into game so I make the choice to live my life in pleasure not in pain So I...
Dec 14th
Waking up to some text from my brother before I’m actually supposed to wake up is not something that puts me in a reasonable frame of mind.  In fact it’s making me down right cranky and this on a day when I really need to be in a good mood because I’m about to head into the one of my two jobs that I now more or less hate. The text alone was from a facebook message and was only...
Dec 14th
listening to "Glee Cast - Defying Gravity (HQ)... →
Dec 14th
So I’m a lil tired tonight but it kinda feels good.  Not the OMG I’m so drained and just wanna slay someone.  Just a sleepy, relaxed sorta tired that feels almost like I’d just wandered out of a warm shower.  It did kinda suck opening and closing my work today cash wise but I still can’t help but be flattered and just feel fantastic to be so trusted and appreciated by my...
Dec 14th
Tonight party was surprisingly great.  I wish I could have stayed longer but I will certainly have lots to chuckle about for a good long time to come.  Like teasing one married friend for grazing not one but both breasts on passing by on his way to the kitchen.  Or another guy showing up unwanted and making an ass of himself.  Last but not least was my being an absolutely evil tease as I hug one...
Dec 13th
After doing some more thinking and watching Glee, cause that show always manages to lift my mood, I think ignoring the person causing my issues is the way to go.  Especially since in the past I’d be doing it mainly because I’d want them to notice my lack of interest and for them to try and vie for my attentions. Right now though I’d be doing it because I know there are happier...
Dec 12th
It’s moments like this when I think on the Ba humbug party tonight after work that I wish I hadn’t slept with you almost two months ago.  I think it’s complicated things for me and made it harder for me to be more forgiving of your moods.  If I see you tonight I don’t know how I’ll react.  Will I be friendly or will I be coldly polite and more or less ignore you like...
Dec 12th
Charlie Bartlett...
has to be the first time I’ve watched a teen film and haven’t felt like I was watching absolutely moronic shit.  The main character has flaws and talents, but he’s not some flat and predictable person. I highly recommend it. It also doesn’t hurt that it has Robert Downy Jr in it as the Principle :3
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There’s really nothing better after a month or more of stress to be able to really treat yourself.  I’ve had to abstain a LOT in my spending and I know I should be doing so more.  I spend WAY too much out eating on my breaks at work.  Not only is it costing me way too much money but it’s also no where near as healthy as I should be aiming for.  My body really doesn’t like...
Dec 12th
Dec 11th
After being on this site for hours now I’m actually glad that I decided to make this account.  It’s kept me so enraptured with many many facets of humanity and probably would be able to all night if I allowed it. In the end though I’m much improved in mood and feel that in some way at least i’ll be able to rest tonight and that in itself is an even bigger improvement after...
Dec 11th
listening to "Tegan and Sara - I Know I Know I... →
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Stream of thought...what a way to start a blog.
I really don’t like getting my head bit off in a small or large way over something so fucking ridiculous as starting a conversation with a question mark.  It’s not a big thing and FUCK I do NOT deserve that.  It’s not like you should either way be expected to know that I’m in a rather fragile and emotional state right now but could you please just reign in the attitude!? ...
Dec 11th